Today something really cool happened to me. All day, for the first time since I've been here, I felt like I really belonged. To be honest with you, being here has been a lot harder than I expected it to be. I had enough people tell me that college would be easy for me that I believed it would be. So when I got here and it wasn't, I felt like I was doing something wrong. Then I got depressed cause I felt like people had too much faith in me and I was screwing everything up....(I try to keep good vibes on here for the most part, but it hasn't been all good)

But then today, everything felt like it kind of clicked. I'm not going to get too excited, in case its a fluke. I think its all going to be ok though, and I really believe that. I mean, if I've had one really good 'in it' day in 4 weeks, who knows what can happen in the next 4.

I'm making this sound all sad and like I've been depressed the whole time I've been here, and that isn't true at all. I've been having fun, and really things have been fine. I've just felt like an outsider.

I guess that's really all I had for today. I'm happy, I'm pretty much done being sick, and I'm going to be ok.