I think a great invention would be sunscreen that doesn't smell like every other sunscreen there is. I really hate the smell of sunscreen, and as a result am less inclined to wear it. There are plenty of other serious negatives about sunscreen, and really only one positive which I think is really debatable because in order to prevent cancer you have to re-apply the shit like every hour, which seems to me like a ploy to get you to buy more sunscreen because people are so afraid. I'm sure there's an economic concept for that, but since the only economics class I've taken was with Mr. Barker (and we all know how those tend to go), I don't know what its called.

But what I do know is this: when little kids walk buy me, or when people come through the drive thru at Caribou smelling like sunscreen, I feel gross and greasy and want to take a shower. And that's just awkward and uncomfortable.

For realz.

Last night my mom and I had a fight. I'm an idiot, because sometimes I think I might actually be able to make my mom understand how I feel about my life. I told her how angry I was, she didn't really get it, but at least she got that I was pissed in a way that won't go away overnight. Its not like I want a lot from my mom, she's just really the only parent option that I have, and somewhere inside me there's still enough of a kid that I still need a parent.

And I realized something last night about my mother that I'd never understood before: since the moment I was born, she's been preparing for me to leave her. And when I got to be a teenager, she got fucking scared about it, and she left me. Not physically, but emotionally she hasn't been there at all since I was 14. The crazy thing about that is I do the same thing. It would appear I am more like my mom than my dad after all.

In other news, my car was broken, but we took it in and its a no big deal problem, so my life does not totally suck. Also, my friends are amazing, and I feel like I should remind everyone that they should be jealous of the great people I know.