I had a revelation of sorts this weekend. I was going to 5th Quarter Friday night, and I was thinking about what I was going to do if someone tried to hug me...and how to avoid the awkwardness that would surely ensue. Then I started trying to think of people that I actually enjoy hugging...and there's only 1. Which led me to conclude-I am an awkward hugger.

I don't think I was always this way...but I deffinetly am now. I make hugging really awkward though, and it sucks because it puts people off and they can't figure out why. They (and I didn't either until I had this revelation) know that an awkward moment just happened, after the hug, but its hard to pinpoint what exactly about the moment is awkward...then they think its them. But it is most deffinetly me and my awkwardness. Now that I've been thinking about it too, I realized I kind of have a lot of anxiety about hugging. Like, will it happen? what am I going to do if ___ tries to hug me?

Sometimes its really awkward not to hug too. Like when I was leaving school for the summer, there were several occasions when I probably should have hugged people but didn't because I thought it would be awkward. Its really awkward either way. So I guess the question in the situation becomes-is an awkward hug less awkward than no hug at all?

I don't know exactly what about my hugging is awkward, but it most deffinetly is, and I apologize to everyone who ever tries to hug me, because I will probably make it weird, but I don't really mean to. It just happens.

(P.S. I chew a lot of gum. I would sort of consider myself a gum connoisseur. There is a lot of gum on the market these days, and its hard to sort out which ones you might like best, or would be best to take on a date or...whatever other situations warrant a piece of gum. So I'm going to start reviewing it. There will be categories and all manner of fun things...starting soon. Woot.)