So, I discovered something last night, that I had always sort of suspected to be true, but had no real proof of-first kisses are fucking awkward.

I mean, in the movies, they're like all nice, and romantic and blah blah blah. But in real life....not so much. I think its because when you first start kind of dating someone, like everything is awkward because you have to do this crazy mind reading thing where you've got to figure out what they're thinking because you don't want to be the one that's in like more. I feel almost worst for guys because they like want to touch girls (I mean appropriatly), but they've gotta figure out if the girl is ok with that, cause you don't want to piss the girl off in the beginning.

Mind reading.

So, when the first kiss does happen, its usually after some other awkward physical touch, and it just puts an awkward twist on the whole evening. But, for some reason, either despite the awkwardness, or maybe because of it, its still kind of cute.

...but awkward....

I suppose, logically speaking, you have to get the first one out of the way so you can have the second one, which I'm hoping is much less awkward and more romantic and perfect and whatnot.

Oh life, you are a funny friend!